This journal will be 100% in English because I simply cannot be asked to go to the extent of translating this long text about my thoughts.
There is something spiritual in this world, I know many are atheists of you are you don't need to read this. Personally I'm a Catholic but that's not the point this isn't about religion.
It's about understanding the heaven and earth... even I don't understand it completely I'm like at 0.02% of understanding it.. but after reading a manga about the life of a finest swordsman Miyamoto Musashi and Sun Tzu's Art of War. I came to realise I spend so much time on useless things, pointless things Facebook being an example but not only that I realised internet in general (I know the hypocrisy of this). Also laziness, sins and dishonorable things I did in my life... all of this happen because I chose for them to happen, I keep telling myself I will get better in Art and Kendo but I never devoted myself as a whole into these things... I always just leave them as empty words.
But last night and today made me realise a few things and I have decided to devote all of my free time to the way of the sword and way of art. Two things I hold dearest in my life. Like Musashi went from schools to masters and advanced in his art so I must get of my ass and become like water and start flowing.. when I feel tired I should feel light and never stop. I don't even know if any of you will understand this. But I had to share this. Also I stated meditating (something I never done before) because a 8th Dan in kendo will tell you this "you must think about this this and this but it's best to not think at all" and this makes so much sense to me now that I start to understand it thanks to clearing my head via meditating.
I hope that my journey as a kenshi and as an artist will progress day by day, now that I started giving my all thanks to finally understanding what was always in front on me. I can already feel my kendo is improving since last week's session. And I can see my art doing the same. I also started enjoying both even more... because without joy what point is it to what we are doing? Never work in anger or frustration but we a clear mind.
Thanks for reading this... it might help someone or no one but thanks nevertheless.